KICKING LOT OF THINGS OUT OF LIFE
Hey everyone it’s me again. Like I was saying, since 2020 is ending I thought I had to get some clarity in my life, some closure. For 10 f**** years I dealt with anxiety, depression, stress, panic attack, insomnia, over sexuality, porn addiction, smoking, drinking, caffeine addiction, overeating, stress eating and what not also suffered from FOMO. But thing have changed since I took a drastic step to take a hold of my life. However, let me tell you it wasn’t easy for a lazy ass like me who would sleep at 5 in the morning and wake up at 12 in the noon, miss breakfast, have a messed up meal spend his time playing video games for 4 hours and just being a jerk. But things turned into horror when my health issues both physical and mental started to take its toll into my life and I started to lose myself.
I lost my job and music career for being well, Fat as F****, I got mocked at and laughed at, cried, screamed and hurt myself. But I saw a ray of hope when I met someone who would try his best to change my life. I won’t name him though.
First things first, How I cure my Fomo? Been doing lot of research on how to cure it on the
internet and shits but found nothing to my concerns, then many friends told me to stay offline and unplug. I would try I won’t lie to deactivate my account then re-activate it again just so I don’t miss out. But slowly I tried to cut off since I realized that Facebook is now no more than a news channel and meme board of idiots and Instagram have become a porn site, and so that was it, that when I pulled the plug and learned to socialize in real life then in a f**** virtual BS of a world.
Second in the list was to kick out toxic people in life, I know that I made myself always available for some assh**** that didn’t deserve my attention and got f**** in the process. But well enough was enough had to say them f*** off though I was cold in my part, that’s it sometimes you have to become stone cold if you get used and abused repeatedly and some punks are only being friends with you for money.
Third in the list was to stop watching porn and jerking off, worst thing could happen to a man is to obtain porn addiction and a habit of jerking off to the point where you suffer migraine, fatigues, low stamina and draining energy and also it f**** your brain. Then I found something called NOFAP THERAPY on Youtube which involve for how long you can avoid porn and masturbation. I tried and I don’t regret the decision.
But the worst was yet to be dealt with and that was my smoking addiction, craving for sodas,
and killing off my f**** anxiety and insomnia. This is when I realized that mental health won’t be cured without physical health and so I ended up joining an intense workout session. Now I am not saying that, “YAY I JOINED GYM, #FITNESSGOAL, BLAH BLAH BLAH" like some posers does on Instagram. Told you all I am no more a social media’s pawn. I do this for mental peace, it makes me feel positive and alive.
NOTE:-NOT BODY SHAMMING ANYONE HERE.
Now I can say that I don’t need a f*** cigarette to get creative and think, I don’t need to pop pills to cure anxiety attacks, panic attacks, depressive fits and Rage? Well I still get angry but thankfully like before it doesn’t turn to Rage.
All I can say finally is that now I feel like I am aligned with my inner self and finally found some part of peace I was looking for. Thank you for reading these random thoughts.
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