Do you know what really is scary? When your life expectancy gets reduced by 20 minutes or so.
I had one off encounters with death many times, first, cracking my skull and losing a hell of blood when I was 6 years old and survived it with a scar on my forehead, meeting with multiple accidents, my head getting stuck at a window grill, drowning and coming back to the shore and what not.
But I never thought that I will meet death again in a worst case scenario, because October 3rd of 2015 was the most shocking day of my life. As my memory serves, on 2nd October I was at a friend’s house for his birthday party and did a hell lot of crazy things and on the morning of third I saw another friend at a café. But few weeks back I was doing hell lot of dope and alcohol and was stressing myself a way too much in the promotional work of my then blog created on a WordPress domain.
What happened on October 3rd you ask? Something
made me angry, a fit of rage that made me tear my posters, pillows, calendars and pretty much destroy my room. I was hearing a snarly voice at an eerie tone. Then I felt like being possessed and then I went paralyzed, body was heavy, palm numbs, vitals dropping and losing heart rate as well as pulse. Next moment I know, I had an acute psychotic episode lead by manic depression, second stage anxiety and emotional as well as mental breakdown lead by envy and comparison and criticism.
Next morning I found myself at intensive with cut marks on my left hands, (Hell, I did that?) and after that rehab happened. (Already said it before but there was more to the story.) So yes, I was built by the people and broken by the same people. But I forgive them because karma is b****.
Now I am trying to re-build myself while they tries to break me further. You see? I ain’t physically tiered but mentally as I am fighting a different kind of war, a war against my own pasts.
Ending is very inspirational for to take from this episode!!!good